No news is good news, right? I don't have much to journal about today. I went to boot camp again tonight, and purchased a package, which means I have invested money and I have to get my money's worth. I am committed to going to BC on Wednesday and Friday. . . if my schedule allowed I would like to go more, but BK is already sucking it up and not complaining when I am gone two nights a week. I feel very selfish for doing this sometimes, but I know from MUCH previous experience that I can not do this on my own. . .so, for the next 14 weeks I guess I will be selfish. Hopefully with a new lifestyle I will be easier to live with.
I almost lost it tonight at Boot Camp. Some little BITCH (excuse my language, but that's how I feel) was looking at the WFMH bulletin board and said (and I quote) "Is that those weirdos from that health challenge". I proceeded to look at her and let her know that we are NOT weird. . . fat yes, but NOT weird. She tried to back track and apologize, but she can never talk her way out of that. I hope that someday she has children and is not only blessed with wonderful, healthy children, but also a metabolism that is non existent AND an ass as big as the love she has for her kids. THEN I hope that someone refers to her as "weird". This was really my first face to face experience with discrimination because of my weight and it PISSED ME OFF. I guess the only good thing is that I was able to RUN farther than ever after this, adrenaline I guess. I could barely even look at her though without feeling so much anger, and ultimately sadness that she is so shallow and clueless. Forgive, I know, but I can't right now.
So, carry on. Keep on keepin' on, move more, eat less, and every other positive thinking cliche' that I can think of. Until later. . . . .
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